one year ago

It was one year ago today that I was told "your department was eliminated and, ya know, it is what it is." Can you believe that? Thinking about it, I still feel the same sense of shock and utter disbelief that I felt at the time. That last thing that I ever thought I would be was unemployed. I believed in the mission of Those Fuckers, and felt like I was part of something very cool. Truly, January 4, 2011 was one of the saddest days of my life, and at the time I thought it was going to destroy me. Those of you who live in the same part of the country as me surely remember how much snow we had last winter, and the unrelenting snow storms combined with my unemployment and also combined with my usual case of Seasonal Affective Disorder was a horrible combination. Honestly, I am surprised I lived through it. But I am glad I did.

Today, January 4, 2012, I feel differently. While I don't enjoy being unemployed during a sucky economy, I can tell you that I'm glad I no longer work for Those Fuckers. I'm thankful that I had worked in a state that is so generous with its unemployment payments, thankful that I did get a very good severance package, thankful that I don't have a car payment (Keep up the good work, Rizzo the Beetle!), and thankful that there are actually a lot of jobs in my field right now. I know I will be okay. And I know that having been through this, I'm a better person for it. 2011 certainly got off to a rough start, but 2012 will have many good things for me.

In other news, there's some weirdness in the air that I really don't get. One thing that drives me absolutely batshit crazy is when people just aren't straight with me. I don't get it. I can deal with the truth, I can't deal with having to guess about why someone isn't speaking to me.

But I'm not letting that bother me. I have a fabulous 2012 to enjoy now!

Good night!